On Friday I waited for G to come home. We had had some bad news regarding our house settlement back in Aus and I needed to go to work. He assured me that he would be home in time. He was 10 mins late, no big deal, although when he walked in the gate, I needed to get out to the car, he walked in with K. What a shock for me. No talk of K coming over to visit, nothing. I was dumbfounded. I went to work. I was upset, I was hurting. Everyone stayed out of my way at work, probably a good thing when you work in a kitchen!!! I txted G to ask if K would be home when I got home from work at 10pm, I was told no, she was going out with friends. I felt a little better. I left work and came home. I came in through the back door and could see that all the lights were out but the TV was on, thats ok I thought, G is waiting up for me. G met me in the kitchen and said 'We're just watching a movie', you guessed it, K was still there. I was shocked again, why hadn't he told me during night? I walked into the lounge room and asked her why she wasn't out with her friends, then I asked if she planned to stay the night. I was not happy. She was sitting on the lounge with a duvet on and then G came in, he sat right beside her and she put her feet up on him. They cuddled up under the duvet. I was shocked beyond belief, so I decided that to calm down I would go and visit L. I was upset, what was I thinking, more than anything that I was an idiot. I stayed with L for a few hours and came home again. I wanted to wake up in my bed so that the kids new I was home. When I got home, I opened the back door slowly, all the lights were off, but I needed to bang the back door to shut it, well, thats when I heard the noises...
I went upstairs and there was G, naked, trying to get into my bed. My daughter A was in my bed and it was obvious that G hadn't been there. His clothes were in a pile outside my door. K was in the spare bed next to my room. I threw my back, I had the shits. I smelt G to see if he had had sex, but he smelt clean, then I thought maybe he had had a shower. I was angry. I tried to talk to G, but he didn't want to talk to me. He said that I had driven him to do it. He said that nothing had been going on, sure didn't look like that from where I was. He decided that he was not going to sleep in our bed and went back to K's bed, but she must have said no because he ended up sleeping in H's bed. Eventually he came back and hopped in my bed. I felt so sick, I tried to be sick but nothing would happen. I asked him what he would do if he came home and found me naked in bed with S, he said that he would have kicked me out. I was fuming. Everytime he got up to go to the toilet I would listen to see if he was going into K's room, but he kept coming back to my room. In the morning, I heard K get up, I followed her to the bathroom to apologise for my behaviour the night before where she kept telling me that nothing was going on. What on earth would her boyfriend think if he knew that she was sleeping in bed with another man??? I told her that I would talk to her down stairs and I made her a tea, when she game downstairs, so did the kids, so I didn't get to talk to her and she soon left to catch a train home.
G said that she will probably have nothing else to do with him. Thats not what I want, I want to know that she is coming to my house, and not when I need to run out to work and therefore not get to meet her. G said that he tried to let me know that she was coming althought he didn't ring, email or txt me... He said that he wasn't trying to hide it, and I think that is true.
I want to forgive G, but I am so angry that he has done this to me again. But again, he expected to have sex afterwards.
I would hate to think what my blood pressure is like right now.
G is away for work on Wednesday night, will be interesting to see if K makes it back to London from Derby on Wednesday night instead of Thursday.